Tomorrow is going to suck

I have two really bad disks in my lower back. The neurologist knows I need disk replacement, but because the insurance companies are total buttheads they make you do all this physical therapy and on the 24th I have to have injections in my spine! I mean seriously come on. They've given me pain pills, which don't make the pain stop at all they just make me silly. I'm so scared of the surgery..but the waiting and going through all of this pain is torture. Stupid insurance. The doctor said my spine looks like a sixty year olds back. I'm only 28 and have never been seriously injured..heck I've never even had the flu. Genetics did this to me I'm sure of it..Well. Physical therapy is at 11:15..even though no one is reading this cross your fingers and hope I don't punch the poor woman inflicting pain on me. She's really pretty nice on the outside, but I'm sure she takes some pleasure inflicting pain on others..Why else would she have that job?